Fuck. It.

That is all.

ANGER
1. With whom did you last get angry?: My brother >.<
2. What is your weapon of choice?: Demon Kitty of Doom
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?: If they deserved it, yeah
4. How about of the same sex?: Definitely XD
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?: My brother XD
6. What is your pet peeve?: So, so many... I'd be here forever listing them
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?: I try not to keep grudges, but I'm really really good at it XD

SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time?: Dusted... I HATE dusting XD
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up?: 9pm
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: Grandma
4. What is the last lame excuse you made?: "Sue will send a search party out for us soon..." (needed to leave XD)
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones)?: But it was so hilarious, I had to watch it XD
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in?: *snorts* Never?
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?: I didn't I don't have one. I have a cat, and I ignored her for half an hour XD

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?: OOh, Starbucks sandwiches - especially their Thanksgiving turkey and cranberry bread sandwiches.... *drools*
2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat?: Preferably dark meat
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?: I think we worked out I had about 3 weeks worth of units at least XD
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company?: Yes
5. Do you have an issue with your weight?: Well, I don't have an issue with it - random strangers seem to though
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?: Salty, then sweet
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, LUNCH?: *dead* I've joked about eating the cat

LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?: At least 10 XD
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)?: The same
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation?: Sometimes
4. Have you done it?: Yes, yes I have
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice?: Lips and eyes
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?: XD No
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?: Pregnancy, yes

GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own?: None
2. What's your guilty pleasure store?: Throntons, Ann Summers
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it?: Buy a house, some clothes, get my hair cut, go on holiday...
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous?: Both are good - with fame comes money
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?: Yup
6. Have you ever stolen anything?: Not that I recall
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?: A ton

PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of?: My grade 8 in English in year 9. I was the only one to get an 8 in anything in my year
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of?: Gods knows... West End show?
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life?: I don't know really...
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?: Yeah, but second is still good
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?: Yes XD
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?: No
7. What did you do today that you're proud of?: I averted catastophe with my cats?

ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own?: Wii and Guitar Hero *poutage*
2. Who would you want to go on Trading Spaces with?: On what?
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?: Anyone interesting
4. Have you ever been cheated on?: Yes
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?: Yes
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?: Self control
7. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin?: Lust


THE SEVEN HEAVELY VIRTUES

FAITH
1. What religion do you follow?: None, I'm agnostic
2. What religion were you raised as?: Jehovah's Witness
3. Do you believe that forgiveness is a religious property, or a human property?: Human
4. Do you have your own commandments?: Lol, not really
5. What was the last promise you broke?: I'd fold the washing XD
6. Have you ever said the words to a prayer and not meant it?: Yes
7. Do you believe that anyone could be perfect?: No

HOPE
1. Did you get everything you wanted over the last holiday season?: Still no Reno figurine...
2. Regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for?: For it to run a little smoother
3. Do you let yourself get your hopes up for something even if you know that there is a large chance of failure?: I try not to
4. Freedom or fate? Freedom
5. Have you ever bought a lottery ticket?: Not for myself, but yes
6. Do you gamble?: No
7. Have you ever had something called off on account of bad weather, but then gone ahead and done it anyway?: No

CHARITY
1. What causes do you support?: Marie Curie Cancer Care
2. What causes have you given money or time to?: I've given money to a number of charities
3. Have you ever worked in a soup kitchen or done another kind of outreach for the homeless?: No
4. Would you ever consider joining the Peace Corps, Amnesty International, or another travel?: Urgh, no
5. Do you give money to the homeless on the street?: No, I don't feel comfortable not knowing what they'd spend it on. Usually alcohol or drugs over food
6. Have you ever helped out a friend with basic needs, like rent or food?: Yes
7. What's the greatest extent you've gone to help a friend in need?: I don't know, but I'd do anything for my friends

FORTITUDE
1. What are you most afraid of?: Losing mum
2. What did you do today that was really brave?: Nothing
3. Who is your favorite superhero, and why?: Rogue - she was so normal under it all
4. Would you put your life in danger to rescue someone?: If I know them, definitely. If not I'd like to think I might
5. If you were to face the Wizard, would you want more courage, more brains, or more heart?: More brains
6. Have you ever gotten stage fright? If so, when?: Never, I always pressed on
7. Do you consider yourself to be a leader or a follower?: I do both, sometimes people know more than I do and its better to follow their lead, than lead blindly

JUSTICE
1. Have you ever been summoned for jury duty?: No
2. If they reinstituted the draft (for both genders), would you go, or would find some way out of it?: Way out, I don't support war
3. Do you support capital punishment (the death penalty)?: Yes. I wish they'd bring it back to the UK. Though decent sentencing would be a good fucking start
4. Which should be guaranteed legal?: Life?
5. Do you believe that Dubya is rightfully President of the USA?: Bush is goooone dude, update your questions!
6. What was your favorite media circus trial?: I don't take much notice, its all rediculous
7. Have you ever written a letter to a politician?: Nope

TEMPERANCE
1. What do you have the hardest time moderating yourself on?: Many, many things
2. Do you collect anything?: Books?
3. Are you addicted to anything?: Nicotine -_-
4. Have you ever put anything on layaway or used an installment plan?: No
5. What's your preferred method of paying for things?: Cash
6. Tell us one thing you wish you hadn't let yourself do?: Hehe, welcome to Regretsville. No Way Out.
7. Do you feel that you obsess over things?: Gods yes

PRUDENCE
1. Who is the wisest person you know?: Jane mayhaps
2. Have you ever participated in a vigil?: No
3. Do you take advice when it's given?: Rarely
4. What area are you wisest in?: Idiots
5. Do you drive defensively?: I don't drive XD
6. What did you learn today?: You can never have too much sleep, only too little?
7. And of course, what is your favorite heavenly virtue?: Hope

And can't talk about it, which is worse. So no one ask me whats wrong because I won't say.

All I'm going to say is I'm not writing more fic. Not for a long while. Sorry.

Ok, quick update:

Screen started flickering last night but I thought nothing of it. THis morning it keopt cutting out. So no screen means no computer use.

Spent all day shopping for wedding stuff, got a quote on fixing comp. Can't get it done until Sunday because of cousin's wedding tomorrow.

Going to get new graphics card and more RAM, irregardless fo it being the screen or not - I need it, end of. Thing is it most likely is the graphics card becauseof the type of faliure.

BTW scuse SHIT typing - my grandma gave me this laptop (grandad bought it for her and therefore is damn precious y'know) and the screen is mangled, the keybaord is FUCKEd and i'm typing on a shit one plugged in because its all I have to communicate with.

I know its only been a day - granted a day I wouldn 't have even been online, but I'm missing you two (you knwo who I mean) like hel. Knowing I CAN'T talk to you is different to not talking to you *sighs* Silly as it may sound but it feel lonely without you.

Going to keep once marvelous and now shitty laptop because my screen (i believe) is fine and my brother can borrow it for his desktop until nmy situation is better. If I can't do anything else I know I'll have MSN and I can talk to you - even if my hopes of PP happiness is shattered likely. 2-3 days is a lot in the scheme of things.

Oh did I mention he's fucked the ethernet cable too so the connection is dodgy? NO monder he bitches about it cutting out >.<

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Pissed off for a million different reasons and feeling like a jerk for feeling this way. But a few things were said that confirmed I have a reason to be pissed off, but still - lately I can't be angry with someone without feeling like I'm being the unreasonable one when its not my fault.

Also neighbours thinking its acceptable to let their kids bash on my bedroom wall in the middle of the fucking night and scaring the kitten isn't amusing either.

So now I listen to Lady GaGa nice and loud because I want to play Porcelain and the Tramps but that would cause problems with the neighbours... Might play Jenny Talia just to make sure they're pissed off >3

While I am now broke once again... both Reno and Mickey are in good health.

Well, Mickey is still fat but thats not my fault and I won't get into whose it is... and Reno's right hip is sore but its not swollen or anything so she's probably just fallen off something and landed funny. We just need to watch her and make sure she doesn't go lame or anything.

Other than that everything is absolutely fine with them, they're up to date with their vaccinations and Reno didn't kick up any sort of fuss ^^

Though you wouldn't think that except a total of an hour and a half travelling and vet visiting that I slept almost all fucking day (bar a couple of horror movies). I'm exhausted for no good reason and I'm worried its something more. But then I'm always worried because y'know, I'm good at that and being paranoid and overthinking things.

I'm just worry some things are gonna happen, and some things aren't. I don't know why, its just idle worry - the sort of thing you go "I wish I hadn't thought about that because I don't believe it but now I can't stop thinking about it."

It'll pass lol.

Something has to be said about the fact I'm blogging - it means that I have the need to write again, I haven't really had the urge to write anything beyond RP for a very long time. Bashing out the end of the Northen Crater was damned hard even though I had that sudden compulsion to write it.

Now its kind of decended back into "Yeah, whatever" which I feel bad about because I want to finish my story so Sam can finish posting it for me. I don't want to get to the last chapter I've written being online and then I have nothing to post >.<  Gah, this is why I didn't want it posted yet, but its a bit late now, and at least I know I'm on the right track because some folks are reading it, and from what I can gather a couple of them enjoy it.

... how everything can seem completely ok. Sure the dog's foot is possibly gonna get infected and we're watching that, and the heat is melting me and poor Reno (the kitty, not the RP character lol) and I'm completely irreversably broke because I need to afford vets for two out of three hell pets, but y'know, everything seemed fine.

And it took all of maybe 2 words to completely wreck that.

Now I'm paranoid, upset and utterly baffled and it won't go away. Sure it might all be in my head but what if it isn't? I don't know what I've done wrong if anything and I don't know how to fix it if I have.

*sighs*

Writing is at an all time low. Aka, nothing is getting written. I just don't know how to write the mission and the morphine addiction, I mean I've never had a building explode and crush my leg, or had a dependancy on morphine. Hell I've never even had it. Still, I guess you can't always write what you know, can you? I'll muddle through.

Maybe. Just feeling utterly lost.

Firstly: People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blog and replace any question that they dislike with a new, original question. Secondly: Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.

01. Make a list of 5 things you would like to do today, but can't:
1. Get magically unknottable hair
2. Watch new NCIS/Criminal Minds
3. Win the lottery
4. Be handed a shit load of money for no reason
5. Fina a magic cure


02. Would you ever get a tattoo?
I have 8 already ^^

03. Is there anything you would never ever attempt to eat??
Erm... testicles. Brains. Hearts.

04. What's your occupation?
Career sit-on-my-asser

05. Do you watch TV a lot?
To be fair not really. Maybe one to two hours a day

06. What was your first celebrity crush?
Jonathon Frakes XD but only when he's beardy

07. What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
FF7, Australian soaps, VP, Facebook games

08. What are you listening to right now?
The sound of my computer

09. What was the last text message you received?
Dani: Why?

10. What websites do you always visit when you go online that aren't on your flist?
Oh, I've bookmarked them aaaall. Because I'm lazy

11. What was the last thing you bought?
Arcylic gel infills ^^

12. Dark, milk, or white chocolate? Choose one.
Milk

13. Does the weather affect your clothing mood?
If you mean colour... no. If you mean if its cold do I put on a jumper? No, I just bitch that its cold XD

14. What is your zodiac sign?
Sagittarius

15. Name a song that makes you think about a ship/character that you like lately.
Everything makes me think of Reno and Tseng. Except maybe... erm... no, everything

Young Lovers by Inkubus Sukkubas - Kadaj/Yazoo

16. Weird dream
I have them all the time, and I don't want to try and type up the last one. It takes forever

17. Do you have any siblings?
An older half-brother and a younger brother

18. What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
I want to tell my Grandad how much I miss him, and how much I never realised that I needed him

19. What are your plans for next weekend?
PPs Easter Click Forest thingy

20. Say something to the person who tagged you:
Erm.. hi? Hello? You're a hooker? I dunno, I say a lot of things to you

Tagging:
Whoever reads it?

I'm so fucking sick of my family having the Reno policy going on - something isn't done, something hasn't gone right? It's my fault. Always my fucking fault.

Someone hasn't done the washing up? My fault
Someone made a mess in the kitchen? My fault
Someone doesn't have the clothes they want because the washing wasn't put on? My fault
Dog tracked in mud? My fault
Dog tore up another pillow/shirt/misc item? My fault
Shopping not been done? Somehow thats my fault too

I'm so fucking sick of it. I'm not the fucking maid, I'm not the only one who lives in this house. Just because I don't have a job it doesn't mean I want to go downstairs to see which hurricane hit last night and deal with it all fucking day. Who used five bowls a day? Not me, yet there were 7 bowls downstairs this morning and I'm getting an earful about how I should have done the washing up.

I'm sorry, out the the 20 or so items to be washed I had used 1 plate and 1 fucking knife. Thats IT. Unlike everyone else I tidy up after myself. I try to do what I can but when you spend three hours scrubbing and go down to find out you might as well not fucking bothered then whats the point?

Antony does NOTHING. My brother goes out 24/7 with his mates instead of training for the army whichis "what I've always wanted to do". Mum works 3 days a week and then sits on her arse for the other 4 watching TV.

So, why is it all my fault?

Why am I surprised? Its always been a double standard.

If my grades were lower than they should be I got a lecture, I wasn't not allowed to do this that and the other and had to study all fucking night and weekend. Mark's grades dropped? Oh well, try better next term.

I go out and I'm an hour or two late, lecture lecture lecture. You should have called/text, why didn't you keep track of time? What were you thinking making me worry? You should be more responsible! Mark goes out for the evening and disappears for two days? Oh, give us a call next time love, why don't you go out again?

I get drunk with my mates, come home and throw up? Serves you right for drinking that much and off to bed again. Mark staggers in, throws up everywhere, groaning like the undead and telling us he wants to die... and mum's there rubbing his back telling him everything will be fine.

I skip my meds to feel for once, everyone yells at me. Mum skips her meds a few days because she can't be fucked to go to the chemist, or to get a repeat prescription or because she needs the "boost"? Wag the finger, tell her not to do it again. If I lay into her then its MY fault.

And I'm always the one who has to sort things out. Grandma and mum yell at each other, I'm expected to patch things over. My uncle finds out mum hasn't called grandma this week he lays into her on the phone for an hour. Yet again I have to pick up the pieces.

They KNOW yelling at her gets NOWHERE. It just makes her retreat, cry and get depressed. Thats it. It doesn't accumplish anything but give me another headache and another reason to curl in a corner and cry because I have to fix it all. Why should I have to fix it all? No one listens to me, no one CARES that I'm trying to help. No, but if I don't do it - "Well, you don't care do you?"

I'm sorry, I try and you tell me to fuck off. I don't try because you're screaming at me to fuck off the second I walk into the room and I apparently suddenly don't care any more?

What the FUCK?

I can't win. No matter what I do. Its always my fault. I have to be the one to fix it. Its all on my shoulders. I'm the maid, the counceiller, the one who everyone cries to and hurls abuse at and thinks its absolutely fucking fine to treat me like shit.

And they all wonder why I hide in my room and sit on the computer or sleep all day. Because I can't fucking take it any more. I shouldn't have to take it any more!

So, Dragonball Evolution... I've avoided it up until this point because having grown up watching Dragonball Z until I wished Cartoon Network knew about other anime than just that, I knew it would be physically painful to look into.

As usual I was correct.

May I start with... Dragonball = Japanese, non? Then, how in the heck is there not a single Japanese person in it that I can find so far? Everyone in this movie is Chinese, Korean or American. It just doesn't make sense to me - Asian people are not interchangable, America!

Bulma... where be your blue hair? A single chunk in your otherwise red-brown hair is not enough. In this day and age, blue hair is pretty normal to be fair, so where was the harm in it?

And James Marsters, I love you. ASH may have got me into Repo!, but I don't think even you can reprieve this carcrash.

The only thing I approve of so far is the dragonballs - huzzah they got one thing right! They actually look quite cool and while the stars seem to be floaty within the orb, I can overlook that for the fact they're still orange and still have stars - at least they didn't change them to blue or something (AC grievances, anyone? XD)

This for me might be like LotR for my dad - a pretty good watch but you kinda sit there going "Where did you come from and why are you here? Fuck off, you're ruining it all!" As we did with all those freaking elves turning up at Helm's Deep. FUCK OFF! You don't exist! The whole POINT of Helm's Deep is that Aragorn's power as a leader and the strength of ordinary people can repel an army! All you elves did was turn up and DIE -_-;;

NOT to mention Faramir going all evil on us... erm hellooo? He was the one who denied himself the ring because he knew it would only bring more destruction to Gondor. He never captured Frodo and Sam, they never went to Gondor with him, and Faramir was the GOOD brother who RESISTED temptation. WHY DID YOU CHANGE THAT?!

*coughs... coughs some more and hacks up a lung* Anyway... Once I finish the Saint Seiya OVA I think I'll indulge in a shit load of DBZ and maybe a little GT. Then I'll contemplate what else to watch because hell I have the time XD

So, hullabalo0 on dA has been on my watchlist forever and a day because her stuff are so irresistably cute. She posted a new ID lately with a cool ranbow fringe which I loved but didn't say anything about, unlike loads of other people. So in the end she fessed up that its fake, and said the first person to guess how she did it gets a gift.

So, I'm reading over everyone's answers and chuckling at the mental images, and I can honestly say I forgot there was a contest when I accused her of eating Skittles (to me, rainbow = Skittles, always) and said how the ideas were making me chuckle. That was that, and I forgot all about the journal.

Until I went onto dA today and I had a note. I thought it was about an image I'd used for stock so clicked and wondered why hullabalo0 was congratulating me, until I read. I came second! I sat and laughed because gods knows I needed some awesome news XD

So out of the choices I've plumped for a pair of earrings which I can't wait to see because in the past I bought a bunny ear beanie from her which I adore ^^

Yay for the little things in life that make you smile ^^

Mum is feeling well enough to put the dog in the car and drop my brother at a mate's to go get pissed. This takes in total half an hour.

But she's too tired, sick and did I mention tired? to spend 10 minutes putting the hair dye on for me? Because I have so much hair I can't do it myself?

Ten minutes.

Thats all I wanted. I can do the rest myself. TEN MINUTES.

She'll do it "tomorrow" ¬_¬

Once again she panders to my brother's whims (drives him everywhere, gives him money - he can do noooo wrong) but me? She borrows money off of me (£300 I technically can't afford to give her), won't take me to karaoke, gets annoyed if I ask her to buy fucking groceries we NEED because she didn't go shopping and can't afford ten minutes to help me dye my hair.

I don't care that she's having a shit time, so am I and the way she's treating me lately is just making me worse. And she just can't see that treating me like shit because she feels like shit is pushing me to and beyond the brink of sanity. And she has the nerve to get ansty if I get angry or upset? She KNOWS if I feel like this I'm balancing on a tightrope and I fall so damn easily and I WILL get angry or upset because she's being unreasonable.

She just doesn't fucking care.

Once the credit card comes (because apparently its more secure) mum and I are booking our flight to NZ ^^

We're gonna leave Friday 16th (because they're all leaving at about 10pm no matter when we go) so she'll get in from work and we'll leave. Been price shopping and so far it looks like we'll be flying with a Singapore company, and will be stopping off there for a couple of hours.

Its funny, this has been in planning forever... and its only right now that I'm going "Gods, I'm going to New Zealand!" Its suddenly very real and very exciting XD

I know Mum def wants to go to the north island to see the lions (Zion/Xion?) so other than a certain birthday and wedding thats our only other definite plan right now XD

Eeee!

Well, erm... pretty pointless since there's no one here to play really, but its something to entertain myself! I'll make some pointlesly obscure, and some hilariously easy ^^

1. Pick 21 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDB and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them in a note for everyone to guess.
4. Friends leave comments with your guesses, strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDB search functions. That's cheating and it ruins the fun!

ONE - Repo! The Genetic Opera
"How did you do that?"
"Do what?"
"Do that! That eye thing!"

TWO Final Fantasy 7: Advent Children
"YOU MEANIE!"
"Our apologies."
"Your ma's cool. What the hell am I saying! "

THREE
"Thought you didn't smoke."
"I took it up recently, for my health."

FOUR
"Are you asking me to give up?"
"No. No, I can't ask you to do that... But I can tell you I won't be coming home tonight. "

FIVE - Corpse Bride
"If I touch a burning candle, I can feel no pain. If you cut me with a knife, it's still the same. And I know her heart is beating, and I know that I am dead; yet the pain here that I feel, try and tell me it's not real, and it seems that I still have a tear to shed."

SIX Tomb Raider
"It's a clock... It's ticking."
"Oh... one of those ticking clocks, eh?"

SEVEN
"They didn't release you 'cause you're better, Daisy, they just gave up. You call this a life, hmm? Taking Daddy's money, buying your dollies and your knick-knacks... and eatin' his fuckin' chicken, fattening up like a prize fuckin' heifer? You changed the scenery, but not the fucking situation - and the warden makes house calls. And everybody knows. Everybody knows. That he fucks you. What they don't know... is that you like it. Hmm? You like it."

EIGHT - The Covenant
"What the hell are you staring at, faggot?"
"That thing between your legs. It's like a penis, but smaller."

NINE - Sorority Boys
"Would you like to share something personal with the crew? Robert... Uh... Ro-berta."
"Personal?"
"Mhm."
"Well, uh, my name is Roberta, and... I'm addicted to porn and I masturbate constantly."
[silence - the sorority sisters stare]
"... Pillow fight! Pillow fight!"

TEN - Dirty Dancing
Me? I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw, I'm scared of what I did, of who I am, and most of all I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I'm with you.

ELEVEN Rocky Horror Picture Show
"Do you think I made a mistake splitting his brain between the two of them?"

TWELVE - Order of the Phoenix [mmmm Alan Rickman voice...]
"Whether he is, as yet, aware of this connection is for the moment unclear. Pray he remains ignorant."
"You mean if he knows about it then, he'll be able to read my mind."
"Read it, control it, unhinge it."

THIRTEEN - Dogma [More Alan Rickman... *drools*]
"What's he like?"
"God? Lonely. But funny. He's got a great sense of humor. Take sex for example. There's nothing funnier than the ridiculous faces you people make mid-coitus."
"Sex is a joke in heaven?"
"The way I understand it, it's mostly a joke down here, too."

FOURTEEN
"This town ain't big enough! Not for me and that frilled-up, flirtin', man-rustlin' petticoat, it ain't!"

FIFTEEN
"What's this?"
[holds up a weird silver object]
"I don't know dear."
"It stinks."
"Caroline, don't say stinks. If absolutely necessary, smells, but only if absolutely necessary."

SIXTEEN Priscilla - Queen of the Desert
"No, I'll join this conversation on the proviso that we stop bitching about people, talking about wigs, dresses, bust sizes, penises, drugs, night clubs, and bloody ABBA!"
"Doesn't give us much to talk about then, does it?"

SEVENTEEN - Labyrinth
"Everything I've done, I've done for you. I move the stars for no one."

EIGHTEEN Howl's Moving Castle
""You who swallowed a falling star, o' heartless man, your heart shall soon be mine." That can't be good for the table." [covers the marks with his hand]
"Wow! It's gone!"
"The mark maybe gone but the spell is still there."

NINETEEN Moon Child
"Our lives are in the hand of an idiot!"

TWENTY
"Well, we both know you're not here on police business."
"No, I'm just a regular 6'2", 200lb civilian... here to kick another civilian's ass."

TWENTY-ONE
"With your girlish wiles and your minxy ways and now your criminal cunning, you know what you are?"
"A washed up slapper."



That was HARD ><

From dA, you crafty wench tagging me

Rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. People tagged must post 8 things each about themselves in their journals.
3. Tag eight people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs

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1. My name would be Helena if my mum knew that was my paternal grandmother's name (they called her Maureen (her middle name) fuck knows why!)
2. I have never played FF7 but I am in love with the world and characters... so much so that I'm WATCHING someone else play it... via youtube XD 23/108....
3. I think I might be addicted to porn... I read, write, look at, draw or watch some form of porn every day. And 10 times out of 9 there are NO women involved.
4. I often throw in references or quotes to movies or my fanfic, and only two people ever really know WTF I'm on about >3
5. Naturally I am as blonde as Cloud... but don't go telling anyone ¬_¬;;;;
6. Hair extensions for the Reno look would cost at least £600 WITH a discount from my hairdresser friend... so I'm buying a wig XD
7. If I stand up straight and keep my feet on the floor I have to stick my foot out 1 metre to see my toes past my boobs.
8. I have poor blood circulation which makes winter unbearable? *doesn't know what else to say*

Tag:
Anyone who reads this and has five minutes on their hands lol!

So bear with me this could get messy!


It started as a commission picture Sam had done of Reno and Tseng. Closest to us (perspective wise) were these blue glass-like tiles that led onto a clifftop overlooking mountains. Tseng was standing on the edge of the tiles and the rocks, looking back for Reno who wasn't far behind him. The wind was blowing towards the right and there was a thunderstorm in the background. I know it wasn't a pairing pic, it was a mission of some kind, and something tells me it was from the fanfic, or a fanfic we had written.

So, somehow this skips to me and Sam at the bottom of a nature walk, in a carpark. Ahead is a gravel pathway that leads up to a flat grass verge where one of those "toy railways" things are - the sort you get in zoos? Over that is a steep-ish climb to the back of one of the clifftops that overlooks a valley.

And there was a thunderstorm coming.

Now, thats where I'm confused because I KNOW Sam doesn't like thunderstorms and I do. So we sit on this bench, not too far from this woman, not much older than me. African-american (TOURIST lol), with a camera, standing and over looking the valley. She turned to us briefly with a smile before turning back. We settle back just as the storm starts and I have my arm around Sam because I know she doesn't like thunderstorms, but with every flash of lightening and clap of thunder I'M the one who cringes!

But its the beautiful sort of lightening you can only dream to see, forked lightening and just so perfectly formed.

Especially when it hit the electricity pylon down in the valley.

I'm worried by now because while its a way off, the fucking lines run about fifty feet from where we were sat. I said we should probably move before the power builds up and moves up the line but we're so mesmerised by this constant streak of lightening that we don't move.

Until it travels up to the lines adjacent, and another bolt of lightening hits THERE. At this point I drag Sam to her feet, grab her hand and start running away from the lines and towards the carpark, which is a heck of a lot closer returning than it was leaving it. I pull her close and we keep running and I start muttering "Just keep running, just keep running" (like Dory from Finding Nemo? Yeah...) as we dash past a group of about 5 teenage boys for the car.

We don't look back but like a simultanius cut in a movie or TV program you see the wooden pylon snap and fall on the woman, crushing AND electrocuting her. Nice one XD

I know somehow we escape to something like a traditional English pub, and thats kind of where that bit ends.

Skip now to the Criminal Minds set. Yes, it randomly turned into an episode of Criminal Minds. This is the third "unexplainable" murder in the area where thunderstorms occurred at the same time, or a natural disaster has somehow come into play in a person's death. I think they were just running short of real seriel killers to be fair.

They do a bit of their usual sluething and come across reports of two women fleeing the scene, and with Garcia discover who we are. But what catches their attention is the commission picture, and that we roleplay Tseng and Reno. What isn't noticed before is that on the clifftop is the small figure of a woman near the cliff edge.

It turns out that through fanfictions and art we've written our own confession, or seemingly planned out these murders and that somehow we slipped into a delusion that we WERE Tseng and Reno.

However, it turns out that in fact we're members of an elite police force team, sort of like the Turks, who had gone rogue and was now killing witnesses. To what I'm not exactly sure, but witnesses. The personas of Tseng and Reno were used to relieve our guilt of what we were doing, identifying with the characters and the life they lead. [[Though I'm quite sure that we weren't romantically involved, unlike our Turk counterparts, because if we were I'm sure there would have been sex in this...]]

This is when it skips again and it turns out our group is targetting this boy who had apparently seen something, and he was next in line on the hit list. This is when it turns into an all-star cast as Will Smith is the one sent in to do the job, creeping in at night and shooting a full round into the boy's chest even though he's woken up. The parents don't even stir.

Morgan and Prentiss appear on the scene and Will Smith is long gone, the kid is somehow still alive (I assume bullet-proof vest under his pyjamas?) and he announced "Its ok, I was wearing my nice pyjamas and they kept me safe."

They go into the parents room, sure that the parents wouldn't have been left alive ... and then it gets hazy. Somehow I'm there and I drag this other man from under the bed, beating him around and then stepping on his throat to cut off his breathing, letting go and doing it again. But at the same time it isn't me, I'm sure it was RENO, and Tseng was there, watching.

Somehow we disappear and so does this guy and the FBI agents get a video feed of a man sat on a sofa, smirking at them, telling them that they'll never find the group and by the time they get to him it'd be too late. Then he starts throwing red mouthwash over himself and the feed cuts off.

They rush out of the house and get to him, but its too late, he's already a crispy corpse.

And then I woke up. With an urge to do that painting at the beginning XD

I think its a combination of an over awake Reno muse, the want to watch Criminal Minds and my current need to do art... maybe?

I come onlines and no one is here! I feel all unloveded. Well, not thats bollocks, I know why you all aren't here, but eh.

Karaoke was alright in the end. Mum let me sing anything I wanted, and I sang "Don't Let The Sun Go Down On Me" best I ever have, and ditto "Waiting For A Star To Fall" ^^ Good singings makes a happy happy Anna.

... In the mood to do more arts, but the art I want to do requires me being able to paint eyes. And I can't I UBERLY suck at eyes. Especially close up. And I'm still pissed that SOMETHING is missing from my otherwise finished Tseng picture.

*sulks*

So yes. If I'm not online assume I gave up and dragged my ass to bed while trying to gag Reno because he's skipping like 4 months into the RP to contemplate what would happen if and when certain things happen. And he's thinking about Tseng's parents, which is weird, because well, we have no idea what they're like because the are shrouded in mystery... and a painful past we don't discuss.

STILL... I'm trying to write Chapter 51, swear to the Gods I am, its just proving to be an almighty pain in my posterior.

... I give it five minutes and if no one comes online, I go to bed. Because I is a tired kitty, yuss. A little rambly but still sober oO After half a bottle of red wine AND a double Tia Maria I'm not sure how... Eh *shrugs*

SEME OR UKE?

Less than 20=Seme
More than 20=Uke

01-[x] You like to be content in everything.
02-[x ] When a person confesses his/her love to you and you don’t like him/her, you start feeling very tense and/or you don’t know what to say.
03-[ ] You enjoy listening to smooth and relaxing music.
04-[x] You are quite hyperactive.
05-[ ] If you don’t like something, you start crying and you don’t care if you start talking too loud.
06-[x ] You love candies or any type of caramel.
07-[x] You like making others blush.
08-[ ] You sleep with a doll/ teddy bear/ pillow in your hand.
09-[ ] You’re usually shy with the opposite sex.
10-[ ] You like romantic- funny anime.
11-[ ] Between L or Light cosplay, you prefer L.
12-[ ] You have listened “an café”.
13-[ ] You like listening to it (the above band).
14-[ ] You have 1 or 2 song on your computer of “an café”.
15-[ ] You are innocent and a little clumsy.
16-[x] You smile at kitties.
17-[ ] You usually say –kawaii-.
18-[x] You like plushies.
19-[x] Between light blue and blue, you prefer light blue.
20-[ ] You hate Paris Hilton because she is an idiot.
21-[x] You have been lost in a shopping center/parking/cinema.
22-[x] You have called to the mistaken number twice or more.
23-[x] You cried with Pocahontas' ending.
24-[x] You have used a very feminine dress or shirt.
25-[x] You call your pets with cute names.
26-[x] You believe that yaoi/yuri is the best.
27-[ ] You're easily to trick/convince.
28-[ ] You men scare you.
29-[ ] You have seen Pucca and you like it.
30-[ ] You have pink/red clothes or they are decorated with flowers.
31-[ ] Sometimes you start looking at the clouds and you get lost in space.
32-[ ] You’ve said “Kyao” or something like that before.
33-[x] When a person of your same sex gets angry with you, you’re at the defensive.
34-[ ] You like j-pop.
35-[x] You have cried for more than one movie/TV series.
36-[ ] You watched gravitation and you felt like Shuichi-you watched strawberry panic and you felt like Nagisa.
37-[ ] You smile with no reason.
38-[ ] You usually are very positive.
39-[x] When there’s a rainbow, you run out to see it.
40-[ ] You usually don’t understand what your parents say

Seme... but only just XD